may forgiveness happen
and may i learn to live with this regret.
fear settles into my bones as
i’ve discovered again how to destroy all i touch
it is a talent
that i feel is underappreciated.
and i am learning to lie.
i throw my heart against the wall
to watch it break
somewhat amazed that i still feel.
after all this time
after all the hurt
after all the death
i still feel
it is elegant.